This was written about a month and a half after Mommy's death. I just wanted to let her know my feelings and thoughts. And most importantly wanted her to know how much I cherished and loved her. She was and will always remain a part of me.

Since you left

I kept thinking about you

I wondered if I told you enough

How much you meant to me and how much I loved you

I know that I told you "I love you" times and times again

But did I say it enough?

I wish I'd say it over and over

Maybe then, you would still be with me.

I know it's selfish

But Mom, it's hard to be not only without a Father

But without a Mother as well 

I miss you guys so much

Mom, I know you were suffering

I also understand that you had to go, 

That your time was up

But I still can't accept it

We could have done so many things together

You were still young but it's destiny

Most of the times, I pretend that you are still here

Just like I do for Daddy

Nobody knows cause I don't say much

But if I am doing something, whatever it is

I picture you here and also what your reaction would have been.

I miss you guys so much

But I feel and know that you are around to keep an eye on me.

You were my true role model

And I hope that someday

I could be more like you

And my biggest dream is to join you guys 

So that we can be together again FOREVER

All this to let you know how much I love you 

And even though you are not around,

You will always have that special place in my heart and in my life

Carline Nolte Mourra

March 28 1995